longing for a child

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around ‘til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure,
I was loved
If I could get another chance
 Another walk,
another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never ever end
How I’d love, love, love, to dance with my father again
When I and my mother will disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Yeah, yeah, then finally make me do just what my mama says
Later that night when
I was asleep
  He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance
  One final step, 
one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
  'Cause I'd love, love, love, love to dance with my father again
Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
  And I’d hear how my mama cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know,
I’m praying for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved  
I know You don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

 





if I could feel my father's love and be pampered like a girl that I see, I would be grateful because I have a great man who protects me, gave me comfort, which can make me smile when I cry. Mom laughed along too. how happy it has a complete family.
but it does not happen to me. I can only weep silently saw the girl sleeping in her father's arms. I saw, I heard the good father's daughter, and I can only imagine if I was the daughter of the man.
longing lost me as a girl. as time passed, now, I grew up without a father. I became a grown woman, I ready to become a mom. in search of love, I choose. I do not want to have him for my children to be like your father. will never be! because your father left me, destroying my childhood with the crying all night. leave mom and working alone. I hope to have a man who could be a father to my children.
  because I know how it feels to live without a father's love.